After receiving the look from the van driver yesterday I bit the bullet and left even earlier from work to insure I wasn’t even 5 mins past 5 o’clock. She actually smiled when she pulled up and I was in the drive way. To say I don’t miss this crap would be an understatement. I don’t think the providers truly grasp that I have been doing this for 17 years while most people are done with leaving work early to meet the daycare van by now. And my life with Corey didn’t start when V came on the scene. It was 14 years of catching buses and vans, missing out on bonuses and promotions, working through lunch, and coming in early. Years of it. One year when I just couldn’t find an after school for him I paid the bus driver $50 a week under the table to make Corey his last stop and I worked through lunch for 5 months so I could leave an hour early. So yeah I am ready for V to return.
What else? Not much leaving early to meet Corey’s van spending the afternoons with my boys does remind me of their younger days. I do miss summers off, or half days. I miss driving to the beach with them on a whim. I miss going to story time at the library or Carowinds after 5pm. All the things I used to do when Corey was smaller, I was broke but worked less, and Cam was “baby”. I shouldn’t project this week as all aggravation because of course it hasn’t been.
My SIL (my ex’s sister) found me on facebook today. It was quite a surprise, turns out she is divorced and many things have been going on in her life since we last spoke, which was 5 years ago I should add. It’s crazy how we all just stopped speaking like we don’t all live in the same town. She wanted to catch up so we are meeting for lunch on Saturday. Should be interesting.
3 Comments
June 19, 2009 at 1:52 am
Years of it.
Damn, that kinda says it all Cat.
You really are a hell of a woman and mother.
I’m not putting you on a pedestal of anything, and I know you probably look at it like “what else could I do?”, but still. You’ve stayed the course and that says so much.
June 19, 2009 at 1:54 am
hmm, should read pedestal OR something.
Not even midnight and I’m too tired to proof read
sheesh
June 20, 2009 at 9:06 am
Thanks Fusion
I did play the hand I was dealt but I run into so many parents who said “no thanks” so I guess the fact that I have stayed the course does mean something special. Honestly though I can’t even envision what my life would look like what I would be like if I had taken another course.