MNG: I am probably giving away too many secrets.
cah1470: why do you say that…did you have secrets before?
MNG: yeah, you are just releasing them, hope it does not look bad on me.
MNG: but I am willing to take the risk.
MNG: I wish you would have come over today.
cah1470: yeah me too
MNG: would have beat the shit out [...]
Entries from November 2007
November 30, 2007
Playing it cool…
November 28, 2007
Mixed Messages…
An email from D Monday night…
Hi-
I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving. I”m sorry I could not send the phone any sooner than today but I did send it Prority Mail. I had my family home all weekend and didn’t have 2 minutes to myself. Was your Mom’s wedding this weekend or next? At least [...]
November 26, 2007
The ties that bind…
So after whining, stressing, and mostly dreading I found the weekend to be quite lovely. I almost forget how tight me and my family are because they get on my damn nerves so much. But the truth is we don’t really get to see each other as much as I would like and when me [...]
November 22, 2007
Happy Thanksgiving-HNT
Serenity’s last comment is very true. I didn’t focus on D being married. I focused on us and she is also correct when it was good with him it was very good, the best in fact. And I am going to miss him. I am going to miss that feeling of having a warm hand [...]
November 21, 2007
Fool me once…
it’s shame on you but fool me twice and it’s shame on me. That is actually an old saying that I don’t only know but one I usually live by. Ask my ex he can tell you. So why I am here is even more surprising. And floundering…After I tried my best to scrape all [...]
November 20, 2007
stupid, stupid, stupid and still even more stupid…
MNG: hey there
cah1470: hey
MNG: how are you?
MNG: i have got to log off in a few.
cah1470: trampled
cah1470: stupid angry at myself
cah1470: ready to go home
MNG: what is going on?
MNG: why?
cah1470: http://cah1470.wordpress.com/2007/11/20/stupid-stupid-stupid/.
MNG: why do you feel that way?
cah1470: because I am a dumbass
cah1470: a girl and a punk
cah1470: and right now I want to kick something [...]
November 20, 2007
stupid, stupid, stupid…
Did you see this coming? Of course you did. I am the only jack ass who was so blind not to see it from a mile away. What you ask? The break up of course. Yes D ended things today and somewhere underneath the rage at my stupidity, and my embarrassment for forgetting he did [...]
November 18, 2007
Meme Fusion…
Fusion tagged me with this meme last week I think. I have been so slow in the post department lately but here goes…
1. What are your 7 favorite tactile things that turn you on?
Sex (like oral, or penetrative) cannot be an answer.
(Examples: silk, light tickling, etc).
A. cuffs and rope the feeling of restriction on my [...]
November 16, 2007
Melt, Melt, Puddle, Puddle…
D: And believe me our lunch date scenario is not my favorite either, but If it’s the only chance I get to have my girl near me I’ll take it.
We agreed to see each other at least once a week. Yes it would be nice if we could see each other for more than [...]
November 14, 2007
The Confrontation…
I had not heard from D in about a week. I kept saying I was going to leave it alone but of course I couldn’t do that. I haven’t been online much contrary to my posts lol. It has been so crazy after work and I don’t spend a lot of time online during work. [...]
